For the first time in my 10 year marriage to an amazing man, I confess that this week I have experienced the feeling of LUST.
I lust after the perfect floor plan! If you feel relieved, don’t. It’s a serious thing and I don’t think much different than the lust one experiences for a man, a drink or the myriad of other things we can yearn for in this world. Lust. That word has struck me smack dab in the head and left me searching for ways to stay grounded, stay in the word and not be so obsessed with what I want. The dictionary explains lust using words such as overwhelming desire, intense and unrestrained. As my husband and I search for the possibility of a new home, I have found myself googling images and placing my things and my life in the perfect floor plan with an overwhelming, intense and unrestrained lust! Have you done this lately? It’s not hard to do. Honestly, just walking through the aisles of target might have you wanting. Wanting. Wanting! All with the justification that the things we want are so small and cheap that we’re actually doing our families a favor by getting them. So is it really a BAD thing to want? After all isn’t it in a women’s DNA to nest, take care of our homes and provide a beautiful place of peace and comfort for our loved ones? Yes! But we have to be careful that the inner desire in us to want THAT, doesn’t become greater than our desire to want HIM. And so this week, I am carefully and prayerfully asking God to keep my eyes on HIM. I am trusting Him to provide all that we need. I am thanking Him for all that He is. I am working hard to quiet the “wants” and awaken the “thanks” and in the end I know the only house that is truly worth my intense overwhelming desires and thoughts, is the House of the Lord. Amen!
Lord, thank you for creating us to be nurturing, caring, purposeful nesters and caretakers. Thank you for putting the desire in me to want to be a good wife and mother. I am so grateful for this life. I confess that I have lusted after worldly desires and I ask that you forgive me and replace my “wants” with thoughts of YOU. Fill me with the gift of your presence and help me to stay focused on you. Help me to put aside any anxiety or worthless stress that moving into a new home can bring and fill me with a calm, peaceful security that can only come from YOU...because my true hope is in you Lord. In Jesus name, Amen!
1 John 2:15-16
Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world- the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does- comes not from the Father but from the world.
